So I’m finally moved. I’ve met so many wonderful people. I’ve been surprised, really, how kind everyone has been (particularly because this is the Northeast, afterall!). But, nevertheless, I find myself feeling down. Once again ministry has placed upon us the decision to uproot and move to a “foreign land.” This is the 7th new town I’ve lived in since my husband and I entered the ministry years ago. In some respects it does get easier with each move. I’ve no problem exploring and finding the grocery stores, library, and post office. And with the invention of GPS I don’t fear getting lost nearly as much.

But even so, it’s still tough to find my place in the community. To make new friends. Get to know my neighbors. Figure out which community clubs, gatherings, and organizations are ones which would be good to be part of. It’s hard to admit that I’m feeling this way. As a parent, I’ve had to help my kids with the transition. It’s easy to get focused upon them and try to just brush away my own feelings. But the reality is that I am a social creature and I long for time with people. Special people. Good friends. So moving is complicated and frustrating to me when I have to start over.

The bottom line is that even after all these years, I’m having to realize (or maybe just admit) that the life of a pastor’s wife and minister can be lonely. We don’t often know or live near others who live this same life, afterall, so there’s not someone with whom we can truly commiserate. And unless you are blessed, there’s also not a lot of believers with whom to connect (at least around here in New England there’s not).

I suppose as a practice in reminding myself ~ because I do know this: the good news continues to be that there is a friend who sticks closer than any other. And it is to Him that I take my frustrations. He is my confidant. He is my friend. And my father. God in heaven is the One who called me to this life, and is the One who is taking care of even the smallest need I have for a good conversation. That’s what’s going through my mind today…if I’m being totally transparent…